This summer I could say was quite an emotional rollercoaster, I lost 2 people both of which were in the same month. I guess you could say that it is all hitting me now and I’ve never been more afraid of death then ever before ); I know this is probably all just soo overwhelming to deal with it all, but I’ve never been so scared in my life to think that loved ones could be taken so quickly from you.. I feel like I am experiencing a mid life crisis at age 19, ha ridiculous I know. I know we have so much to live for and I couldn’t ask for anything more from the people that are currently in my life, just some scary thoughts that I know I just need to not worry so much or think so much about.. Ugh! :/
“bestfriend.” what does that word really mean? i like to think i’ve had quite a few of those so called “bestfriends” but at the same time what does it really mean. some but not all, are some of which who have walked in and out of my life deciding to be my friend when they decide to be. i’d really like to think that my “bestfriends” are those who have stood by my side through thick and thin, who are there for me and haven’t left my side from day one. i truly thank those people who have but at the same time are they just there for the time being. i guess one will ever know and that question will continue to stay unanswered, at least in my life thats for sure…
“life is not easy for a reason.”
“and what is that?”
“its just cuz.. we werent given life just for it to be a walk in the park. hello! we were given life to hurt, to learn from our mistakes, to fail and get back up again, to succeed and have great things happen to us when we least expect it..”
“i hate that i can tell you everything that we live for but i myself cant accept what life is all about”
haha, i suck!
